10 Things I HATE About Him..

'when we had a fight..'


I hate the way he act like everything is fine,nothing close to say those things he used to said to me the nice assurance, the feelings of in need

I hate the fact that I have to check my phone every ten minutes and realized that I was looking blankly at the phone expecting the two above but nothing came in

I hate the way he just stays away from me when I was upset wit him, hoping not to make it worst,when it's actually the time I need him the most

I hate to pacify myself to bed,when I know I can't sleep properly without his good night wish when tears become my only companion

I hate the way he expects me to recover by just saying sorry and to hope that after tomorrow it will be fine again when I actually can't sleep thinking how hurt I am

I hate the way I have to be upset over something that might not be so much of a big deal to be angry for more than I intend to, if he can only tries a little bit harder,just a little bit more, like he used to

I hate the way I wish to have the old him again who won't easily give up after few moment of silences who always tries in every single way to persuade me,calls, sms, turning up unexpectedly, in every way that he can

I hate the way I've been hoping for things to get better,forgiving his faults, but never forgetting his promises, and how his name is still included in my prayers struggling in between my tears. to hope..that everything will be better..

And I hate how much I love him,I can't bear how much I need him,

But mostly,
I hate the way I don't hate him
Not even close, not even a little bit,not at all..cz in fact he always be mine (whoever he is)


P/S: Love is simply when you can't hate..